It has been 4 years since I last blog. I decided to start again... I've been through so much and still going through so much. The intensity has gone down but the truth is I am still leading my life with my wounded child despite all the Self-Heal work I've been diligently doing. Instead of questioning myself and asking myself why I do I still feel wounded despite 15 years of Self-Help work, I am going to start credit and congratulate myself for each little baby steps through this blog of mine. The Truth is I have been AMAZING! SO SUPERBLY AMAZING!!! To have gone through what I've gone through and is still going through. I remain as truthful as I am to myself. I feel what I feel. I do what I do. As much as possible, I don't deny the inner truth which is exploding in me. As much as I could, I listen to myself, I honour myself, I do whatever I could for myself. And I know for sure, I will be here for myself. I will never ever abandon myself. I just wish it could be mad
Dancing as Goddess Durga, I aim to destroy all my Pain, Drama & Attachment. As Fierce as I could With my Mighty Fiery Fire, I am determined to break the viscious cycle I have been Spiraling in all these years! As Honest as I am, the Attachment is still in me I still want to cling on to what I am used to clinging on to. Even when it has already driven me to countless times of deadly devastation & desperation! How can I ever break my viscious cycle this way? How many more times do I want to "die"? How much more do I want to torment myself? Can I ever master how to love without attaching myself with such tight madness? Or am I really meant to remain as a wandering soul?