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It has been 4 years since I last blog. I decided to start again... I've been through so much and still going through so much. The intensity has gone down but the truth is I am still leading my life with my wounded child despite all the Self-Heal work I've been diligently doing.

Instead of questioning myself and asking myself why I do I still feel wounded despite 15 years of Self-Help work, I am going to start credit and congratulate myself for each little baby steps through this blog of mine.

The Truth is I have been AMAZING! SO SUPERBLY AMAZING!!! To have gone through what I've gone through and is still going through. I remain as truthful as I am to myself. I feel what I feel. I do what I do. As much as possible, I don't deny the inner truth which is exploding in me. As much as I could, I listen to myself, I honour myself, I do whatever I could for myself. And I know for sure, I will be here for myself. I will never ever abandon myself. I just wish it could be made e…
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Goddess Durga

Dancing as Goddess Durga,
I aim to destroy all my Pain, Drama & Attachment.

As Fierce as I could

With my Mighty Fiery Fire,
I am determined to break the viscious cycle I have been Spiraling in all these years!

As Honest as I am,

the Attachment is still in me

I still want to cling on to what I am used to clinging on to.

Even when it has already driven me to countless times of deadly devastation & desperation!

How can I ever break my viscious cycle this way?

How many more times do I want to "die"?
How much more do I want to torment myself?

Can I ever master how to love without attaching myself with such tight madness?

Or am I really meant to remain as a wandering soul?

Desire Aroused

Kundalini Awakened

Let's Dance Again!

For many months, I was drowning... I thought I have lost everything.

Trapping & Punishing myself inside this Deep Dark Pit... More & more Weight piling on me
How can I ever find a Way UP?

Have I been burning myself too Harshly & Wildly? What have I done to deserve all this Pain and Anguish?

Why must I be separated from the one I love so deeply? The Pain so Intense that I'd rather burnt myself Alive!
                                       Slowly....  I begin to feel more and more Light swirling to me.

 Surrounded & Supported by this Promising Light,  I gradually emerged.

Here I am!          Ready to Dance as Light again!

Shining Forth as the Core of Universe!

All Ready to begin my Dance all over                          again with You!

The Love within me died

The Eternal Twin Flame had diminished... The Love within me died..
I stopped my dance.

Who do I spiral with now, I wonder?

Here I transcend my Love, and start with the Flow..

The Dance of 2 Bodies

In their sweet and fresh bodily form...

In a World that only belongs to both of them.
When Time has no beginning and no end.. And Space as free as heaven
Melting into each other flesh Dissolving into each other skin
Drowning into each other eyes Breathing into each other hearts
With only the wetness of Burning Love trickling down their innocent bodies.

My New Dance Partner

Spiraling in Light as I dance with my Beloved

Integrating as One with Him

Indeed A Heaven on Earth Connection this is! I have never felt as ecstatic as this..

Here I am right now..

Am I to dance alone again?

Or perhaps it is time for me...

To dance with the rest of the world?